Jesus · Myself

My first.

My first.

My first prayer request. Thinking of what to blog about. I’ve never asked before because it’s so hard to say “I need help”, to admit you’re vulnerable. To show your struggles and admit that you can’t do it alone. That you don’t have it figured out, that you’re not sure the message will get there to God from you alone.

The truth is, my job is so hard. For various reasons, I just have to hold on for the ride. I’ve never experienced stress like this (and I made it through all those weed-out, pre-med college courses with As). And I’ve made it through years of this. Then add on a recent move, living covered in boxes around me (literally), hosting family, business trips, wedding planning (just barely), and living with anxiety.

To friends and readers, I am resilient. I am. But here I am, woken up in the middle of a Thursday night, scribbling on an envelope picked out of the trash to say “help!” This is my request written in a manic fury in the middle of the night, in the middle of the storm.

My first blog post. My first prayer request.

the-envelope

God answers prayers for me every single day of my life. The list of answered prayers is endless. The list of answered prayers I didn’t even know to ask is endless. Fast forward two weeks and I can’t even begin to list all my blessings. I’m still in the storm, but God is here. And I didn’t even get around to transcribing my prayer request until now.

So in my messy life, racing against the clock, when I don’t even have time to request my prayer request, God heard me.

Advertisements

One thought on “My first.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s